I finished a story board for a Porky themed mini comic I'm gonna illustrate for King Porky month.
It's gonna be my submission for the "Fuck Yeah Porky Minch" tumblr's "pairing" contest, that is if I finish it before the end of the month.
It's funny, gruesome, tasteless, depressing, horrific, triggering, and adorable all at once. But, mostly adorable and depressing.
I dunno, it's gonna be a lot of illustrations. There's, like, possibly over 18 panels. I also have several ideas for alternate endings, so It'll probably have continuations.
It's kinda a visual comic, I don't know if I'll include any dialogue.
Porky really reaches me at an emotional level. He's precious, but he's also the sickest bastard in video game history, at least I think so. I wrote a whole journal about my feelings regarding Porky, but I deleted it. I have it saved though, in case I want to reread it and reflect. Writing it really helped me vent some bottled-up confusion I've been experiencing, but deleting it made me feel lonely.
When people know about my problems or what makes me feel afraid, it just makes it worse.
Although at the same time, I feel like if I never express some of my deepest ailments, I might just explode and yell all my secrets at the top of my lungs.
In a nutshell, I explained in my deleted journal that Porky helps me vent my fury. That's why I draw him doing violent, sick things. It's nice to just allow myself to let-go and draw the darkest filth my imagination conjures. Porky is the perfect window for this since it's already part of his character.
It's like... everyone is a glacier, and we'll never quite understand all that's hidden under the water, and all we have to judge a person off of is what we see and feel on the surface. All that water is cold, and glaciers are big, we can dive and try to explore them all we want, but we'll never know every nook and cranny... It's just not possible.
What makes Porky act the way he does? He probably doesn't know and doesn't give a shit. But, there's always reasons.
I've felt depressed lately.
But, I think my boss is considering promoting me, so that's cool.
You know, if I had full control over my life, I'd get a huge tattoo covering my whole back of New Pork City. Heck yeah.