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  • Listening to: Andrea Bocelli
  • Reading: 1984
  • Watching: Steven Universe
  • Playing: The Wonderful 101
  • Eating: The Wonderful 101
  • Drinking: The Wonderful 101
I think something might've gone terribly wrong somewhere.
I want to see a doctor, there's something wrong with me and I can't quite describe it. It's not right that at one moment I'm in such a good mood that I can work an eleven hour shift without protest, but then the next moment I'm crying so hard that my coworkers pull my till during a rush and let me go home almost instantaneously.
I have the best coworkers, you guys.
But, anyway, I've cried a lot lately. The other day was kinda creepy, I passively thought to myself that something wasn't my problem because I would no longer be alive by the time it would be a problem. It was odd, my mind immediately drew that conclusion, and it came to me that I genuinely don't anticipate reaching mid-life. It's just odd that sometimes I can wake up, excited to eat breakfast and listen to music in the car on my way to work, but another morning, I'll wake up resisting the urge to paint the ceiling with my brains. This sadness just isn't going away.
Uh... I've been trying really hard not to talk about my feelings, but typing it all out like this kinda makes me realize that it's a bit of a serious issue.

I attempted to wash my Ninten doll for the first time today. He needs to be hand-washed because of his hair, and of course because he doesn't fit in a washing machine. Who would want to put poor Ninty in a washing machine, anyway? Those twisted weirdos!
I've had him for two years now, his birthday was this month. I never touch the doll unless I've just washed my hands, and if I left the house that day, I won't let him touch my clothing. I take the care of my dolls extremely seriously, but he still had gotten kinda dirty. That's one of the reasons I've never gotten photos of him with my Ness doll.
I put a little laundry detergent into a big metal bowl full of water and scrubbed Ninten's hands and face in it. He didn't enjoy it. The worst part is that I left his neckercheif on and the red bled into the white of his shirt and skin. Thankfully that area is covered by the neckerchief anyway.
But, the cleaning went very well. It's comforting to know my doll was put together well enough to handle a cleaning. I've been too nervous to attempt cleaning him sooner, fearing he could be damaged. After all this time, I thought he was stained, but his pallor had returned upon the wash. I'm rather relieved. Although, he probably will smell like soap for a while.
In other doll news, I have almost settled on a method for creating my future Lucas and Mr. Wedgewood dolls. I will start with Lucas because my idea involves a concept I'd like to test on a smaller doll like Lucas, that ideally will also be implemented in the Mr. Wedgewood doll. If Lucas's pattern turns out great, I'll probably remake Ninten and Ness with it so they all match.

I was promoted at work! I'm a shift leader now!
Huh? A leader!?
Just like... Wonder-Red!
My seriousness tends to cross the realm of reason, too. Just like his does!
I have a lot more power now, but now I have to make certain decisions for myself, which I'm not used to. I'm the youngest of three, so everything was pretty much predetermined for me growing up. I don't think I've ever really had an opportunity to lead before. I've always just had to deal with the cards I've been dealt.

I want to draw Arthur Wedgewood, but I can't seem to do anything but compulsively check Tumblr, dA, facebook, and Youtube lately. For the past three months, I've been in this emotional rut that's got me stagnant. I've just been sitting around getting very little done. I have a lot of projects shelved. It's got me frustrated, but I can't seem to muster up the energy to do anything about it. I've hardly even played any video games.

:star: commissions CLOSED


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United States
Previous account: freband88

Just doing as I please, following what I believe is right.
I am working to improve my skills in sewing, pencil drawing, 3D design, costuming, and general craft making. I use DeviantART as a journal to keep track of my progress.

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Current Residence: Alabama

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Lunoz Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Artist
Hey, I just wanted to say that the final version of the Ninten hack I made is done, and that you maybe want to check it out.…
IDragonWishI Featured By Owner May 20, 2015
Thanks for... the llama but... I'm trying to get rid of all mine. x3
Feathery-Wings Featured By Owner May 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, sorry. :noes:
Really? It's possible to get rid of llamas?
IDragonWishI Featured By Owner 3 days ago
Well, you can give them, yeah? Just not more than one per person, sadly. D:
KookyvonKrazy Featured By Owner May 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello. Long time no see I suppose.
Feathery-Wings Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah! We're always so busy now.
What's up?
KookyvonKrazy Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
The atmosphere.

I have been doing school crap for most of Tri.II and now that I have a bucket load of free time in Tri.III I don't know what to do with it. My drawing style has changed...a A LOT a lot. I think it looks pretty but I draw darker stuff than I used to. It's kind of personal or just...messed up so I haven't submitted it. Even though it's crazy and often offensive, some of it is really beautiful. Almost like a rattlesnake. Then some of it is just straight up bad. I draw it because it relieves stress. People don't understand the feeling of drawing something offensive or abstract in the dark with some good music playing. 

I feel this account has so much old work I feel like making a new one. It's almost embarrassing my old work compared to my new stuff and my new stuff is so different none of my watchers would like what they see. I don't think I should deactivate this one. Just let it collect dust in the midst of dA. I also wish dA had a section where one could put artwork in a place that is private to the artist and a couple of friends. 
Feathery-Wings Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, I could argue the atmosphere is all around us. The stratosphere on the other hand... well, I could argue that on the other side of the world, the stratosphere is technically under me.

I get what you mean. I've done quite a few pieces I can't share on dA, maybe on Tumblr though. Heh.
But yes, I ended up abandoning my first account, freband88, and creating this one for my darker work (actually, I posted some seriously messed up stuff on Freband back in the day). I ended up wanting to draw other things besides dark stuff and I just switched to this account entirely after a time. I'd suggest doing it if you really want to, it feels refreshing.
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Lunoz Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
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